Blows over and through your soul like a cold wind
Freezing your potential like the cold freezes your breath
Prevents you from attaining that which is rightfully yours
You must go a different direction
Use different tools
Take a path unknown to you
To come out on the other side
Away from fear
Thoughts and words create your reality, your future, your vibration and the world around you,
as we are all connected.
Focusing on what others do/do not do lowers your vibration.
To raise your vibration, focus on healing yourself.
If you want the world to be a better place it all starts with you and what you are projecting to the world. so focus on what you want to see...and you will create it.
When you focus on what you do not wish to see: what you fear, what you hate, what you do not want, you bring more of it into your body, your life and your world.
If you are here to heal this planet and raise its vibration,
you must first raise yours...
So choose your thoughts wisely...every thought is you sending out to the universe what you want more of...make sure it is a positive one!
As I am scrolling through my "On This Day" posts on Facebook, which shows all your posts from that day for years prior, I ran across a few from the year of my divorce, saying how grateful I was for my friends and their support:
"So humbling to hear what your friends really think about you. Thanks ___&___ for a great dinner and positive energy!"
"I am fortunate to have such h a great network of friends. Thanks ___, ___, and ___ for a great day yesterday."
It was a hard year for me, but I had an amazing network of friends to support me.
Two weeks later my Twin Flame would find me.
He was my very best friend from 25 years ago, and we had lost contact for 19 years.
I had always wondered what happened to him, how he was and often tried to find him to no avail, it was a miracle that he found me after all these years. I was so overjoyed that he found me again I thought my heart would burst.
As we were catching up I told him about my impending divorce, and made the comment
-how grateful I was to have an amazing network of friends supporting me through this difficult time.-
A few months later my divorce was final, I was throwing out things and found an old letter from him from so long ago. As I read the letter it became clear he had been in love with me.
I was dumbfounded.
How did I not see this? Was this why he found me? Was this why I always looked for him, and thought of him?
Then I realized I had not heard from him since we reconnected. I was so caught up in my divorce and moving I had not realized it.
I messaged him that I found the letter, and he wanted me to read it to him. As we reconnected again, I asked where he had been the past few months, why had he disappeared?
He said when I told him I had a great network of friends to support me
-he thought I meant I did not need him in my life.-
Why would he think that??? How could he have gotten that from what I said, especially in the context I was saying it?
I felt nothing could have been further from the truth, I very much wanted him in my life, I missed by Best Friend and did not want to lose him again.
This is a very important part of the twin Flame journey all need to pay very close attention to:
His reaction to what I said had absolutely NOTHING to do with me or what I said or did:
is reaction was based on his past, his childhood and fears of rejection from so long ago.
Let me repeat:
His reaction had nothing to do with me or what I said. His reactions had had everything to do with his own past, fears, hurts, trauma and childhood.
As we progressed through our Journey we triggered the most profound and hidden fears within each other. I found my self overreacting to things he said and wondering why, and especially why with Him when this had never been an issue before with us? He was reacting to things the exact same way I did as well, another interesting revelation.
We had never had a disagreement before but everything was causing extreme reactions in the both of us. We were reacting to things that had nothing to do with the TRUTH of our relationship. It was scary as this was the ONE person I never wanted to cause any pain. I was terrified of hurting him. I was terrified of being hurt myself. I was just plain terrified.
What if I lost him AGAIN after all these years?
He was so loving and supportive, which I had never experienced in a relationship except with him. It was confusing that I was so afraid of the one and only man I had ever truly trusted 100%.
This sent us on the most profound discovery of our lives:
One of self-love, and the realization that our reactions truly had nothing to do with each other, but with all the relationships of our past that needed to be healed.
We were triggered to heal the parts of us containing all the hurts and fears of the past that held us back from our future:
Feeling unworthy of love, not good enough, all have to be healed before we can be together.
So often as I work with other Twin Flames the questions comes up:
"Why does my Twin Flame Run From me? Why does m y Twin Flame Reject me? Why does my Twin Flame abandon me?"
The answer truly is so we can learn to stop running from ourselves, rejecting ourselves, and abandoning ourselves.
Looking back another truth has come forward...
He was right, I did not NEED him in my life...I still do not NEED him in my life, but I do very much WANT him in my life.
Here it is years later and I am finally on the path of Independence I always wanted to be on-
Finding happiness within myself and my life purpose, becoming whole, and doing what I was put on this to do.
This is what your Twin Flame is here for:
To lift you up out of your Co-dependence and fears, and to remind you of the strong independent and whole person you truly are.
Please understand: your Twin Flames reactions are not about you.
Their reactions are about themselves and what they need to heal within. So are yours!
So when you or your Twin Flame is reacting, you are being given the gift of time and silence to heal,. So take advantage of the opportunity, get to work, start healing so you can stop reacting, and come into Full Union.
Sometimes a fire is started you simply can’t put out
It happens when you find the one you cannot live without.
Nothing else will matter, no one will ever do
The only one you’ll ever want is the one made just for you.
The huger is insatiable, the feelings so intense
You will know they are the one for you, no sitting on the fence.
Passion like you have never known, your soul will be on fire
For the one who stokes the blaze in you and fills you with intense desire
This fire it will consume you, it comes to heal your soul
It burns away all of your pain, it comes to make you whole.
And when this fire is finished, from ashes you will rise.
You will be a whole new you, feeling so much more alive.
You will know you are unstoppable, nothing can hold you back.
This fire that has come to claim you has cleared out all your lack.
Never more will you be alone, you’ll face all of your fears
You finally will have all the love you need from the one you hold so dear.
You will blaze a trail together, like no one has ever seen.
You’ll show just what can happen when you choose to follow your dreams.
You may not be perfect, You don’t have to be
All that really matters is you are perfect for me
Everything I thought possible and all I thought true
All things I Imagined I found inside of you.
My best friend, my lover, my confidante and more
My mirror, my conscience, my conspirator.
All that I dreamed of and all that I need
Is all that you are, I am fortunate indeed.
When I got divorced I was told to find someone for their money instead of love, so I can be comfortable and happy.
I said NO.
I want it ALL or NOTHING.
I want the best friend, romance, passion, love, mind-blowing sex, someone who puts me first, loves as I do, who understands me and appreciates me for who I am, who will not take advantage of me, and will actually protect my heart.
Because I DESERVE it.
It is my Destiny.
I will not settle again.
I choose Love.
When you love you can forgive
When you forgive you heal yourself
Healing yourself opens your heart
Your heart opens your gifts
Your shared gifts exude Unconditional love
Unconditional love heals yourself and others.
You can have the relationship you have always dreamed of, but sometimes God tests you to see how bad you want it.
It is the same with anything else in life; you must fight for what you believe in, or remain in the purgatory of mediocrity.
Do you want Heaven or Hell?
It is your choice.
Nothing worth having is easy, or free.
Love yourself without needing another to validate you or caring what others think.
Hidden in your past all the way back to childhood are family templates or loops such as "not good enough" that you need to work through, heal and release.
These templates have been passed down for generations from relatives for whom nothing you did was ever enough, or right, or perfect.
Forgive them for passing this down to you.
Forgive them for not loving themselves.
Forgive yourself for letting them make you feel their opinions have control over your own self worth.
The only approval and love you need is from yourself, not those committed to see the worst in you; who project their own fears and self limiting thoughts of not being good enough upon you...
This is where your freedom lies.
I am going to let you guys in on a SECRET that may help you in your Twin Flame Journey.
24 years ago my Twin Flame said something to me that I CHOSE to withdraw from.
We were BFF's and told each other everything, but I did not want to hear it...
so I RAN.
Not from him mind you, but from MYSELF.
It was simple constructive criticism, however what he said hurt my feelings and instead of dealing with it; I simply walked away.
I gave away my power.
I was not in charge of me or my feelings.
Instead of ACTING and facing what he said, and taking advantage of a GROWTH OPPORTUNITY,
I REACTED and abdicated my throne of power.
Why am I telling you this?
Because so many of YOU are in fact the RUNNER in your Twin Flame Journey and do not even realize it.
By expecting others to tiptoe around your very precious feelings, you are in fact inhibiting your own growth as a soul, thereby sabotaging your Twin Flame partnership.
Let me repeat that:
You are in fact inhibiting your own growth as a soul, thereby sabotaging your Twin Flame partnership!
We are here to grow, we are not here to stagnate and if you are trying to CONTROL what you HEAR from others including your Twin Flame, you are simply blocking your own growth as a soul and as a Twin Flame.
When you are not growing as a soul, you cannot move forward.
When you cannot move forward, your Union suffers.
Understand that we are Ambassadors of Unconditional Love, and part of that love begins with ourselves.
Part of this soul growth is learning to not blame others for our feelings and triggers.
Why? Because our reactions are our responsibility.
As much as everyone is trying to make their reactions someone else's job now days:
our Reactions to things is the one and only thing we have control over.
So why give away your power and ALLOW someone else control over you?
Realize that this is an active choice you are making.
Is that what you want; For someone else to control how you feel?
Do you want to live a life where others to have control over you and how you react?
Or are YOU in charge of YOU?
Understand that you will be triggered by others including your Twin Flame until you are not triggered anymore. This is to force you to face yourself, your pain, and heal your past so you BOTH can move forward...
You cannot control what others say or do, you can only control how you choose to react!
Stop giving away your power.
Stop Blocking your Union.
You are not a fragile being; you are a powerhouse of love and light, start acting like it.
This is what your "Twin Flame Runner" is waiting for.
This is why we are here
Take back the reins of your own life and LEAD the healing of your Twin Flame Journey.
Take back control of your life and lead your Twin Flame back to YOU, by doing the work.
Heal yourself, heal your Union.
What is the difference between your Karmic Partner and your Twin Flame?
The Karmic kills your self esteem,
like the death of a thousand cuts...
Your Twin Flame makes you face how you got those cuts,
and helps you heal them.
People use the label "narcissist" far too freely to describe who they think is their "Twin Flame" This "narcissist" is either selfish or in truth not giving the complainer what they want when they want it -which would make the complainer the the selfish one or Narcissist... see how this works?
Let me explain.
Your Narcissist Soul Mate is actually a Karmic Partner with two very important lessons for you:
Recognition and Discernment.
They prepare you for your Twin Flame in this way!
Most Karmic Partners happen to be Narcissists for a reason, to teach you to love yourself enough to walk away from what does not serve you. They teach you what you do not want. They teach you to put yourself and your mental, emotional and physical health FIRST. which is why they become abusive in some way shape or form:
To wake you up. They make you start to question why you put up with this behavior and set you up to never let this happen again.
If our partner is abusive we need to be self aware enough to call a spade a spade and walk away as this is not a healthy relationship.
What most describe in the groups is not a Narcissist, but actually someone simply being selfish, or the runner needing space and time to heal themselves.
So if you now realize your Twin Flame is not an abusive Narcissist, and you are complaining that they are not doing what you expect them to do(uh oh, do you have expectations?), what then?
Lets take a look in this mirror of love, shall we?
What most of the complainers and advocates of accepting poor and often abusive behavior often are truly saying is that the complainer is actually the problem.
Here is why:
You need to respect your partners boundaries and give them the space they need to heal themselves. It is important to realize that both partners often need time and space to heal on their own. When one goes silent both are triggered to heal things from their childhood and past.
So now the question becomes; why can you not give them the space and time they need to heal?
Are you needy, codependent, not letting go of or healing your control issues abandonment issues and rejection...?
Why are you not healing that within yourself?
Constant complaining about others is avoiding the vital self-work required to improve and grow as a person and move forward in life. Don't you want to grow and be the best person you can possibly be, not just for them; but for yourself?
You need to be 100% whole and non-codependent for Union with your Twin Flame.
Non-codependent means you do not NEED anyone to make you happy and whole because you already ARE happy and whole with yourself.
When you are happy and non codependent, independent and self sufficient, you will not constantly look for the flaws of others to make yourself feel better.
You also will not look for love, accepting mere crumbs of love, you will want the whole cake and will not accept less than you deserve. You will BE love and therefore simply attract it to you like a moth to a flame.
Love and Focus on yourself, stop complaining (you actually bring more of what you complain about but that is a whole other subject in itself).
Walk away from what no longer serves you, no matter who you think that person is.
Heal your expectations that others jump when you need them to or what you think your partnership should look like (you have templates there that need to be broken - yep another subject.)
Lose the need to control the outcome of your relationship; the how and when.
When your focus becomes improving you, instead of what the other is doing wrong, all the relationships in your life will change!
So you want a true partnership different than all the rest?
To have that partnership, you must BE that partner first...
Do not focus on the labels, and what the other does or does not do.
So be love. Choose love, Focus on love.
Your Twin Flame, people and their actions do not make you angry.
The wounds within from your childhood and your past that you have not healed make you angry.
Lack of accountability for your feelings makes you angry.
Lack of control of another or a situation makes you angry.
Feeling rejected makes you angry.
Feeling abandoned makes you angry.
Placing the blame for your anger on others makes you angry.
All are issues for you to heal from your past, not for others to tiptoe around.
All are designed for you to go within and heal your past.
When you are whole within, not much will make you angry,
Once you know yourself, what people say or do cannot define you.
The only thing you have control over is yourself and your reactions.
Faith is so very important for creating your future.
Faith and love in itself is creation.
For with love and faith all things are possible.
Soul mate connections show what you do /do not want in a relationship and point you to your truth.
Have you ever made a vase or bowl out of clay? You put a lump of clay on a wheel adding more clay here and removing from it what you do not want, shaping and reshaping until it is just right. Then you remove it, FIRE it up to CURE it and then paint it creating a beautiful masterpiece from what was once a simple lump of clay...
It is in the final stages of creation that any remaining lumps that were missed are found are removed to create the final masterpiece.
Much like the Twin Flame journey: we do not WANT to change until we MUST. The Twin Flame relationship is the final creation of our Lifetime Masterpiece in the Mastery of Self. That is where the beauty of this journey is.
Our Twin Flame is the one who makes us finally work on ourselves... looking inward instead of outward blaming others...shaping and removing what does not belong and where we are purified by FIRE to become our true authentic selves:
Beautiful, Strong, and Uniquely and Imperfectly Perfect.
To first understand why there is no False Twin, you need to understand what a Twin Flame is and what it is NOT.
I will use an analogy first to make this easier to comprehend using Fruit.
Oranges are not Apples.
Oranges have a hard outer skin that you must remove and peel with your hands and they are divided inside into sections with seeds in each of the sections.
Apples have an outer skin that is edible and the inside is all one piece with the seeds down the middle almost like a separate section for just the seeds.
There are many varieties of Oranges and many varieties of Apples, but you would never mistake one for the other, even though both are fruit.
If I were to say an Orange is an Apple you would disagree because they are nothing alike. But If I say a Macintosh and a Granny Smith is an Apple, you would agree.
Calling an Orange a False Apple would imply it is very much like an Apple, but as many have experienced; an Orange is nothing like an Apple.
Now, if you had never SEEN, tasted or EXPERIENCED an Orange, you might think perhaps an Orange could be an Apple.
You first would need to experience BOTH to know and be able to discern the difference.
To Imply they are the same does not make sense, now does it?
It is the same with Twin Flames and here is why there is NO False Twin Flame.
You have many soul mates; one Twin Flame.
A Twin Flame is ONE soul in TWO bodies. You will have the same energetic signature with the same values, wants, needs and desires but go about things very differently in a perfectly balanced manner. You will have a immensely calming unexplainable connection with this person and will love them unconditionally. It is a comfortable relationship, where you can be 100% yourself.
A Soul mate is a part of your soul family. They are separate souls. Some of your Soul Family are here to support you and some are here to teach you lessons.
One of the lessons you will have will be with a Karmic Partner who is a separate soul, which you have Prior to your Twin Flame.
You may have met your Twin Flame first but will not be with them at this point, and may not be aware of who or what they are just yet.
There will be an attraction with your Karmic Partner, but in the back of your mind if you are honest with yourself and pay attention to your intuition, something will be off. Your Guides may actually at some point tell you point blank what is wrong and to run (which happened to me two months into the relationship, but I did not listen.) You are to figure out what that is. This off behavior often becomes increasingly abusive behavior in some manner. A Karmic Partner is to show you what you DO NOT want. Karmic Partners are often Narcissists, who cannot and will not ever meet you halfway, will not try to improve themselves in any way because they feel they are never wrong. They will make everything your fault, with no accountability for their part in things. they will not look to improve themselves or the relationship.
You may experience a Catalyst next who will pick you up off the floor after your Karmic Partner Relationship nearly destroys you and your self esteem. They will make you see there is a possibility to have what you always wanted and confirm that the Karmic Partnership is not what you want. Something will still be off or missing. This relationship is generally short and sweet, and both may be fresh out of Karmic Partnerships,
Finally your Twin Flame will arrive and/or find you again and you will start to heal yourself. They will be ALL you have ever wanted and most importantly NEEDED. The emotions will be overwhelming and unlike any you have ever experienced before. Even though you will KNOW who they are you may not be ready ( you will later find you had other soul contracts to fulfill) or be terrified, due to all you have been through with your Karmic Partner. Your Twin Flame will love and accept your 100% for who you are. Twin Flames are loving and respectful. I repeat Twin Flames are LOVING and RESPECTFUL. They are not abusive because to hurt you is to hurt themselves. All the things your Karmic Partner said was wrong with you, your Twin Flame will love and appreciate. All the things you thought a true partnership should be WILL BE with your Twin Flame.
Your Twin Flame will make you feel Loved, Appreciated, Cherished and Fulfilled in ways you never have experienced with anyone else before.
Those who have not experienced all the above will be confused. They will even deny this is the process as they very much want to have a Twin Flame and they want one NOW and may say "all Twin Flame relationships are different."
Much like the orange and apple, you first would need to experience BOTH the Karmic Partnership and the Twin Flame relationship to know and be able to discern the difference.
To Imply they are the same does not make sense, now does it?
In my experience, all Twin Flame relationships stories of those in Full Union are more ALIKE than not. You need to experience many relationships to learn how to recognize, give, receive and finally to BE love. No two are alike.
As you progress from Soul mate, to Karmic Partner, Catalyst, to Twin Flame you will begin to truly understand the Twin Flame journey and why the other relationships are not the same and did not work out: they all were preparing you for this enduring love of a lifetime.
It is important to know the Twin Flame Journey is a LONG process... one of ENDURING, UNCONDITIONAL Love, but worth It.
If you do not feel this applies to you and that your journey is different, I have a suggestion:
WAIT AND SEE before you decide.
You have all the time in the world.
You will see why it is a long process, why most Twin Flames do not come into Full Union until after they are 40 and why there is no False Twin Flame.
Everyone here has a different role to help us all move forward. Some will make you face your truth by triggering you, some will pamper you, some will do both.
The fallacy is in expecting everyone to see/do the same thing.
You may not always like the answers you are given especially if you are looking for validation. Often in retrospect you will find that the truth of the situation that someone else saw, is a truth you simply were not ready for.
You may need to ask yourself "is there an element of truth here that I need to hear right now?
If so, what is it?" And do some honest digging.
Many right now are getting triggered and tested more and more often. The closer to Union the faster and more furious the triggers to clear out what you need to heal.
See these triggers are opportunities, not a need for alarm. In this opportunity it is important to be honest with yourself.
If you are triggered there is a reason: You need to GROW.
How do you know when you are triggered?
You are angry, offended, sad, you need to make the other person see your point of view and agree with it. These are all elements you need to heal within from your past, not for others to tiptoe around (which would be control).
Question everything about your reaction in order to grow:
Why am I upset?
Where have I felt this before?
Is this something I have experienced many times with many people?
Where does this come from in my childhood/past?
What do I need to change in order to move forward and not blame others for my reactions?
What do I need to heal?
This journey is meant to teach us recognition, truth and to release what no longer serves us. What no longer serves is usually FEAR/EGO based reactions to things. This fear manifests as rejection, abandonment, the need to be right, being easily offended/taking everything personally, etc.
Not all are on the same path, not all are Twin Flames, and not all need to agree on every tiny detail.
You cannot make a Zebra a Bear.
They are both animals, but they are not the same type of animal.
Not all lightworkers are Twin Flames for a reason, all have a different purpose to move this planet forward to evolve.
Not all parts of a car are the steering wheel, some must be tires, some must be the engine and some must be the gasoline. If you are a wheel accept that it is a very important job, equally as important as the engine, as an engine can go nowhere without wheels…
Accepting yourself for who you are and accepting differences in others is vitally important on this journey.
Expecting all to be and think exactly alike only holds you back.
Go WITHIN as that is where your TRUTH lies. Not in what others have to say.
If you are worried what others say or do, or need validation from others for your own truth, you are on the wrong path.
Once you KNOW your truth, nothing anyone says or does will bother you, and you will be triggered less and less.
When you reach this point, you will reach a whole new level of freedom: the freedom of letting go,
the freedom to be yourself and accept that others can also be themselves and not be wrong.
I had an interesting vision while walking today:
The love of my life and I are on a C-130 flying with the side door open. My Twin Flame used to jump off airplanes for a living, and for whatever reason is afraid to jump off THIS one. I get impatient and push him out of the plane and as he turns around in disbelief, he grabs onto a cord connecting the two of us and yanks me out of the plane after him.
I am annoyed and terrified and as we are falling towards the ground we start using the cord between us to pull ourselves together. He looks alternately pissed and amused. I am nervous and trying not to laugh or cry.
When I reach him we grab onto each other and embrace, relieved, then we start rolling over and over. As we are rolling and hurtling downward, wings sprout and start to emerge out of our backs, his are black, mine white.
As we continue to roll our wings are growing straighter and stronger. As they grow turbulence sets in and we start spinning and tumbling until we are tumbling away from but next to each other.
We start to use our wings to stop the tumbling, slow down, and start flying. We look at each other grinning and finally grab on to each other's arms and start to fly together, then we let go and stay together flying separately but together until we make it to the ground.
Seeing as this is a few Days prior to the Eclipse, there seem to be a lot of messages here!
Many people on the Ascension Path discover they are highly Empathic and have a hard time with the energy of others. Learning to stay balanced and not letting the energy of others affect you is of vital importance on this journey. Below is a simple way to take care of your energy and to protect your self from the energy of others. Do daily first thing in the morning or before bed. This practice is also important for any who do energy work: Psychics, Healers, Doctors and Physicians.
Next ask Arch Angel Raphael to fill you with his Green Healing Light and to fill any cut cords and attachments with green healing light as well, and send them back to where they came from, never to return.
If you get into the practice of doing this with your I AM and Gratitude Statements daily as a general rule, you will find it is much easier to handle anything that may come your way. Do before and after each Reiki session/ reading/ interaction as well, or if you have a run in with a negative person(s), and you will find you are more able to keep your balance when things get a little crazy!
The question many avoid regarding relationships is "do you love this person for who they are, or do you love the IDEA of who you want them to be?"
Many people are attached to labels on relationships and the IDEA of a relationship instead of actually looking at it for what it truly is.
Boyfriend, Wife, Twin Flame, Soulmate: are all labels.
"Because we are TF's" is a label not a reason to be in a relationship with anyone.
Twin Flames are Divine EQUAL PARTNERS that are so alike we understand where each other is coming from, have the same values, wants needs and desires. All the things that break other relationships apart are eliminated, and instead, all we have to do is face ourselves in the mirror, each work on our own faults, fears and self-love.
So be honest with yourself.
Do you know who this person is at their CORE, what they want, need, desire, and WHO they are including their FLAWS? Can you accept them Unconditionally as is for all that they are? Can they be themselves? Bossy, pushy, tenacious, stubborn, sarcastic, impulsive: can you accept these traits in them?
The next questions are
Is it not worth it, to know you are loved and accepted for who you truly are including your faults, and can you honestly do the same?
Do you love the Idea of me, or who I really am?
Because that is the only truth that matters in Love.
Hate is hate, people.
If you hate another race or religion you are a Racist.
We are all the same on the inside, and we are all ONE RACE the HUMAN RACE.
Look at your own family. Not all are mechanics, not all are veterinarians, not all are gardeners, not all are doctors, but you love each other just the same. You learn to work through your differences, and accept each other for who they are.
Learn to accept and celebrate differences with everyone and TALK /LISTEN to what others have to say. Ask questions, do not TELL someone what they think. If you cannot or will not talk/work it out YOU are the problem.
Less than 5% hate other races.
Extreme Muslims? Less than 5%, New Black Panthers? Less than 5%, KKK, less than 5% Nazi's less than 5%. Christian Elite's less than 5%.
These Extremists/Racists are less than 5% of the population, no one is better than another, so if you think you are, YOU are the problem.
For those who are not aware Hate is a mask for FEAR, and FEAR is the opposite of LOVE.
That which you fear CONTROLS you. You need to control yourself and your reactions not everyone and everything around you.
Step into your HEART, discover why you fear another and HEAL that.
If you need help with this ask any Energy Healer and they will help you to over come this.
If you are easily triggered and project your fears/feelings/unhealed heart upon others, that is a message from your soul of what you need to focus on and release in order to move forward in your life.
Do you find your thoughts continuously going back to the same things over and over? Are you constantly focused upon how wrong someone is, tallying up all the perceived wrongs others have done to you in your life? This scoreboard is the unhealthy scoreboard of your self inflicted blocks.
The universe will continue to send people to trigger you until you are no longer triggered. The only thing you can control in your life is your reactions.
So the Question now becomes are you coming from a place of LOVE or FEAR to deal with this?
Are you gong to go within and heal yourself?
Or will you continue to blame others for your reactions and your self inflicted pain?
The only way out is IN and UP.
Go within and heal your past, heal your past so you are not toxic to others.
Raise your vibrations by healing yourself. Be honest with yourself.
The world is a beautiful place if you simply allow it to be.
Ever notice on an airplane prior to takeoff the steward/stewardess will say "in the event of an emergency the air masks will drop, put the oxygen mask on yourself FIRST, before helping your children and others."
There is a reason for this. You cannot help others if you do not help yourself first.
You also cannot love others if you do not love yourself first.
The hardest part of the Twin Flame journey is to keep moving our focus back to ourselves and our healing and off of our Partner.
Our number one responsibility is to ourselves, becoming whole, complete and non codependent. We must dig deep, heal and help ourselves first, become whole, put that focus back onto ourselves and stop avoiding our own healing.
Twin Flames are healers and our first instinct is to help others....but we have to learn to put ourselves first. If we do not, we cannot fully step into our mission and help others.
So, where is your focus? Are you healing yourself? Are you becoming whole, and independent?
If not, put that oxygen mask of love back where it belongs, on yourself!
When My Twin Flame found me again, we had been separated for 25 years, and not been in contact for 19 years...We had always looked for each other, but for some reason could not find each other. This is what happened when he finally found me...
We met when I worked in a men’s store while I was in college, he was in the Army. As soon as we saw each other, we stopped and stared at each other for a few minutes before I started helping him. My Coworkers later asked what that was about. I had no idea, but it felt like we knew each other, and he was adorable and funny, so we became been best friends and inseparable. My friends and coworkers always questioned me about him. We would go dancing all night long coming home soaking wet, having won dirty dance contests, slow dancing, hanging out and doing everything and nothing together, but he never once tried to kiss me, and had ample opportunity. I would lament about my boyfriends, we would discuss life and things, he was a perfect gentleman. We would call his mother and talk to her often, she had us take a personality test for some reason and we came out almost exactly alike. She said she had never seen this before and we laughed, it was “because we are best friends!” So of course we were alike!
He eventually moved away after getting out of the Army, and we wrote and called each other. I missed him immensely but thought nothing of it. At one point in our friendship I agreed to be “best man” for his wedding, even though I was devastated he was getting married, which at that time I didn’t completely understand. I at one point wished he was a girl so he could be my maid of honor when I got married and hoped we would go to each other's weddings. After reading one if his letters I all the sudden felt completely unworthy of him. He seemed so much more spiritual than I, so amazingly sweet and awesome, he was so far away, and I was a Social Butterfly who didn't go to church and drank too much, so I started to write back less often.
We eventually lost touch, but I always wondered how and where he was and over the years would try to locate him several times.
Fast forward to 3 years ago. I was going through a very painful divorce which I would later learn was a Karmic Partnership. I was looking for answers and trying to fix myself with Massages, Hypnotism, Spider Vein Removal, Reiki, you name it, I was trying it!
I even met someone while going through my divorce and we seemed to be designed to heal each other. But as he was also going through a divorce from an abusive person, we eventually drifted apart. He was what you would term a Catalyst, he was amazing and a 180 degree opposite of my ex, but not quite a 100% match, but now I was utterly on my own.
One day I open up Facebook and there is a message from my long lost friend from 25 years prior! He asked if I remembered him (REALLY???) hopes he was somewhat memorable and states I was the one who got away (OMG ?!what!?) As we catch up he divulges that he had loved me, but was afraid I would reject him, and he preferred to have me as a friend than nothing at all, so never told me about it. Add to that he had no job when he got out of the Army and no where to stay. I informed him I had loved him as well. I was so overjoyed to hear from him and shocked that my former BFF was saying I was the one that got away. We both told each other that we had looked for each other for years to no avail.
He was currently married, alluded not happily, and I told him about my impending divorce, that I was a complete mess and he said he wanted to be there for me and help me heal, but then he disappeared.…
My divorce was final a few months later. I moved out and was purging things to downsize, and ran across an old letter from my BFF. The letter said he was taking a break from dating, because he compared everyone to me for some reason…asked when I was going to come and see him…and as I read it, it dawned on me, he HAD been in love with me. How had I missed that? Is this why he found me again? So I messaged him that I found the letter and he asked if he could call and would I read it to him. He asked if I remembered his voice (odd question??) to which I responded “how do you forget someone’s voice? Of course I do!"
When he called and I heard his voice, I felt really weird. My Heart reacted and my head started feeling fuzzy, but I brushed it off. We both exclaimed “OMG I LOVE your voice!“ to each other, then I read him the letter. He was amazed I still had it after all these years.
He then said he had a story to tell me, so we planned a call for the next day so he could tell it to me, he said it was long and would take a while.
When he called I felt weird again. My heart and head felt funny, so odd. I poured myself a glass of wine and settled into bed as he told me his story. He reminded me of the engagement I promised to be his best man for, told me why they never married. We discussed other relationships each had over the years since and his engagement to his first wife.
He then told me that prior to her and for the subsequent years he had dreams every night of a woman and himself. Every single night in these dreams he and this woman did the mundane things of life; laundry, making love, walking, sitting on a porch, sharing dinner. He never saw this woman’s face, but every night the dreams would return and he started feeling he was in a relationship with this woman to the point if he dated anyone he felt as if he was cheating on the woman in his dreams. He knew everything about her: her heart, her soul, everything, except for her face. He never told anyone about the dreams, and started thinking he might be crazy.
One day he is working in the bar of a hotel and a couple comes in. They were very loving and affectionate with each other. So much so, that over the course of the next 3 days his curiosity was piqued. They were always touching each other, feeding each other, looking at each other with a love he had never witnessed before. On the 3rd day they announce they will be leaving, and he asks if he can buy them lunch as he had enjoyed serving them and had some questions for them, as he was newly engaged and had always wanted a love like they had.
At this point the woman looks at her husband “I TOLD you it was him!” The husband rolls his eyes “yes, I see, you were right” and chuckles. As he looks at them quizzically, she states “we have been looking for you.” Now he is really curious. Who were they, and why were they looking for him? She then asks “are you still having the dreams?” He was floored. How did she know about that? He had never told a soul! She then informs him she had been having dreams about him having the dreams and they set out to find him.
She states he knows person in the dream, and he says no, he had never seen the woman’s face. She reiterates, “you have met this person already.” At this point an image flashes before his eyes but he brushes it away. He and the couple become friends, and over the years, they discuss how the couple’s relationship came about, and they discuss his future without too much detail, but that he will make many mistakes and have big lessons to learn.
They also make him promise that when he sees the face of the woman in his dreams, he has to tell her about the dreams.
He then gets married, divorced and married again, and through it all the dreams continue.
Now as an aside: the whole time he is telling this story, my BFF who is never at a loss for words is having a hard time; stuttering and stumbling as he tells me this story. Why he was having such a hard time, telling me this story? I could tell he was nervous, it was so not like him at all!
He continues: A few years ago the couple died within 6 months of each other. He said they affected many people’s lives and were well loved. They were mentors to a great many people. I start to get chills. He said so many people went to their funeral it was amazing.
In the fall of 2013 he has a dream. He is on a beach alone. The couple who had befriended and him and died appear out of nowhere and say “it is time, come with us.” He asks where they are going and follows them. They stop and he can see the woman he had been dreaming of all those years at the end of some breakers with her back to them. He recognizes her instantly. He turns around to the couple but they had disappeared.
He starts calling to the woman, but she cannot hear him; the waves are too loud. So he walks out on the breakers trying to get her attention. She still doesn’t hear him. Finally he gets to within 20 feet of her she hears him and as she turns around says “it is about time!”
At this point I had begun crying, I already knew what he was about to say.
iIs voice was full of emotion and he says:
“Terri, it was you at the end of the breakers.
YOU are the woman I had dreamed about over half my life!”
I was dumbfounded.
It was the most amazing and beautiful story I had ever heard, it was coming from the only man I had ever truly trusted and felt safe with: my best friend from so long ago...
And this is where our story begins...
Many are surprised to hear I was the Runner in my TF relationship, as I have grown and mostly moved beyond that aspect in my Twin Flame Journey.
When my TF found me again after 19 years of searching for each other after losing touch, he made it clear he wanted to take our relationship beyond the BFF's we were before to the next level. Fresh out of a divorce from a Karmic Partner as well as a Catalyst relationship, I was not ready to hear what he had to say.
I was confused, and terrified of all the feelings swirling around in my head. My Ego was in Full retreat mode. I had proclaimed to my friends and him that I wanted 2 years to "fix myself" to "get back to me" and here was the one and only person I ever trusted in my life showing up out of the blue proclaiming he loved me unconditionally including my flaws ("who SAYS that, anyway???") and wanted to help me heal, reminding me who I was, that there was nothing wrong with me and that we were destined and designed for each other.
I cried the whole time he spoke. In fact I cried almost every time we spoke. Actually, he did most of the talking (a Gemini, go figure) and is the one person I know more talkative than myself. No one had ever said such lovely things to me, and all my emotions and fears from the past came rushing back up to the surface battling for attention.
How could he say these things when he had not seen me in 25 years and we had not communicated in 19 years? How was that even possible or realistic? What if he changed his mind after we saw each other? What if I rejected him and hurt him, as I had a tendency to do when seeing any man from my past after a few years? He was the last person I wanted to hurt-much less lose AGAIN. How can we have these feelings when we had not seen each other for years? It made no logical sense to me!
He was persistent, pushy even. In truth he pursued me as I had always dreamed a man would, but the timing? UGH! I literally told him to "back off! I am not ready for this shit!" To which he responded "I will back off but I WILL NOT back away!"
I was dumbfounded.
Again; who says this stuff??? This man was serious!
He finally stepped back, realizing I needed time to process all this, as well as to rebuild our relationship which had been untouched for 19 years.
He switched from pushy, to lovingly patient and vulnerable.
He figuratively cut his heart out of his chest and handed it over to me, saying he loved me and did not need for me to say it back and in fact did not need for me to reciprocate it either, that he had loved me over half his life and would love me no matter what.
I was completely shocked.
Once again: Who does this???? Who says things like that???
Twin Flames say and do these things.
Why? Twin Flames are Unconditional Love.
TRUE LOVE has no boundaries, no conditions, no restraints and no need to be returned, no need to control and no expectations.
So for those who are chasing and trying to force that connection to the one you think is your Twin Flame I have some advice from a Twin Flame Runner:
Let the other heal, let them breathe, let them figure it out, and build a foundation of trust, patience and UNCONDITIONAL love. It is in this way you prove to them you will always be there and that this is the Enduring Divine Partnership that you know it is.
If it is meant to be, it will happen... in Divine timing of course.
After all, forever is a very very long time....
Trust the Universe, Trust your heart, and Most of all: trust in that Divine Partnership of forever.
This Spiritual Journey has been an amazing one back to myself, becoming whole and realizing who I was meant to be. This Blog will be about Reiki, Spirituality, Love, Twin Flames, becoming healthy balanced and whole and all that I have learned along the way. Channeled messages, spontaneous poems, scribbles and memes will be mixed in.