Blows over and through your soul like a cold wind
Freezing your potential like the cold freezes your breath
Prevents you from attaining that which is rightfully yours
You must go a different direction
Use different tools
Take a path unknown to you
To come out on the other side
Away from fear
Thoughts and words create your reality, your future, your vibration and the world around you,
as we are all connected.
Focusing on what others do/do not do lowers your vibration.
To raise your vibration, focus on healing yourself.
If you want the world to be a better place it all starts with you and what you are projecting to the world. so focus on what you want to see...and you will create it.
When you focus on what you do not wish to see: what you fear, what you hate, what you do not want, you bring more of it into your body, your life and your world.
If you are here to heal this planet and raise its vibration,
you must first raise yours...
So choose your thoughts wisely...every thought is you sending out to the universe what you want more of...make sure it is a positive one!
As I am scrolling through my "On This Day" posts on Facebook, which shows all your posts from that day for years prior, I ran across a few from the year of my divorce, saying how grateful I was for my friends and their support:
"So humbling to hear what your friends really think about you. Thanks ___&___ for a great dinner and positive energy!"
"I am fortunate to have such h a great network of friends. Thanks ___, ___, and ___ for a great day yesterday."
It was a hard year for me, but I had an amazing network of friends to support me.
Two weeks later my Twin Flame would find me.
He was my very best friend from 25 years ago, and we had lost contact for 19 years.
I had always wondered what happened to him, how he was and often tried to find him to no avail, it was a miracle that he found me after all these years. I was so overjoyed that he found me again I thought my heart would burst.
As we were catching up I told him about my impending divorce, and made the comment
-how grateful I was to have an amazing network of friends supporting me through this difficult time.-
A few months later my divorce was final, I was throwing out things and found an old letter from him from so long ago. As I read the letter it became clear he had been in love with me.
I was dumbfounded.
How did I not see this? Was this why he found me? Was this why I always looked for him, and thought of him?
Then I realized I had not heard from him since we reconnected. I was so caught up in my divorce and moving I had not realized it.
I messaged him that I found the letter, and he wanted me to read it to him. As we reconnected again, I asked where he had been the past few months, why had he disappeared?
He said when I told him I had a great network of friends to support me
-he thought I meant I did not need him in my life.-
Why would he think that??? How could he have gotten that from what I said, especially in the context I was saying it?
I felt nothing could have been further from the truth, I very much wanted him in my life, I missed by Best Friend and did not want to lose him again.
This is a very important part of the twin Flame journey all need to pay very close attention to:
His reaction to what I said had absolutely NOTHING to do with me or what I said or did:
is reaction was based on his past, his childhood and fears of rejection from so long ago.
Let me repeat:
His reaction had nothing to do with me or what I said. His reactions had had everything to do with his own past, fears, hurts, trauma and childhood.
As we progressed through our Journey we triggered the most profound and hidden fears within each other. I found my self overreacting to things he said and wondering why, and especially why with Him when this had never been an issue before with us? He was reacting to things the exact same way I did as well, another interesting revelation.
We had never had a disagreement before but everything was causing extreme reactions in the both of us. We were reacting to things that had nothing to do with the TRUTH of our relationship. It was scary as this was the ONE person I never wanted to cause any pain. I was terrified of hurting him. I was terrified of being hurt myself. I was just plain terrified.
What if I lost him AGAIN after all these years?
He was so loving and supportive, which I had never experienced in a relationship except with him. It was confusing that I was so afraid of the one and only man I had ever truly trusted 100%.
This sent us on the most profound discovery of our lives:
One of self-love, and the realization that our reactions truly had nothing to do with each other, but with all the relationships of our past that needed to be healed.
We were triggered to heal the parts of us containing all the hurts and fears of the past that held us back from our future:
Feeling unworthy of love, not good enough, all have to be healed before we can be together.
So often as I work with other Twin Flames the questions comes up:
"Why does my Twin Flame Run From me? Why does m y Twin Flame Reject me? Why does my Twin Flame abandon me?"
The answer truly is so we can learn to stop running from ourselves, rejecting ourselves, and abandoning ourselves.
Looking back another truth has come forward...
He was right, I did not NEED him in my life...I still do not NEED him in my life, but I do very much WANT him in my life.
Here it is years later and I am finally on the path of Independence I always wanted to be on-
Finding happiness within myself and my life purpose, becoming whole, and doing what I was put on this to do.
This is what your Twin Flame is here for:
To lift you up out of your Co-dependence and fears, and to remind you of the strong independent and whole person you truly are.
Please understand: your Twin Flames reactions are not about you.
Their reactions are about themselves and what they need to heal within. So are yours!
So when you or your Twin Flame is reacting, you are being given the gift of time and silence to heal,. So take advantage of the opportunity, get to work, start healing so you can stop reacting, and come into Full Union.
Sometimes a fire is started you simply can’t put out
It happens when you find the one you cannot live without.
Nothing else will matter, no one will ever do
The only one you’ll ever want is the one made just for you.
The huger is insatiable, the feelings so intense
You will know they are the one for you, no sitting on the fence.
Passion like you have never known, your soul will be on fire
For the one who stokes the blaze in you and fills you with intense desire
This fire it will consume you, it comes to heal your soul
It burns away all of your pain, it comes to make you whole.
And when this fire is finished, from ashes you will rise.
You will be a whole new you, feeling so much more alive.
You will know you are unstoppable, nothing can hold you back.
This fire that has come to claim you has cleared out all your lack.
Never more will you be alone, you’ll face all of your fears
You finally will have all the love you need from the one you hold so dear.
You will blaze a trail together, like no one has ever seen.
You’ll show just what can happen when you choose to follow your dreams.
You may not be perfect, You don’t have to be
All that really matters is you are perfect for me
Everything I thought possible and all I thought true
All things I Imagined I found inside of you.
My best friend, my lover, my confidante and more
My mirror, my conscience, my conspirator.
All that I dreamed of and all that I need
Is all that you are, I am fortunate indeed.
When I got divorced I was told to find someone for their money instead of love, so I can be comfortable and happy.
I said NO.
I want it ALL or NOTHING.
I want the best friend, romance, passion, love, mind-blowing sex, someone who puts me first, loves as I do, who understands me and appreciates me for who I am, who will not take advantage of me, and will actually protect my heart.
Because I DESERVE it.
It is my Destiny.
I will not settle again.
I choose Love.
When you love you can forgive
When you forgive you heal yourself
Healing yourself opens your heart
Your heart opens your gifts
Your shared gifts exude Unconditional love
Unconditional love heals yourself and others.
You can have the relationship you have always dreamed of, but sometimes God tests you to see how bad you want it.
It is the same with anything else in life; you must fight for what you believe in, or remain in the purgatory of mediocrity.
Do you want Heaven or Hell?
It is your choice.
Nothing worth having is easy, or free.
Love yourself without needing another to validate you or caring what others think.
Hidden in your past all the way back to childhood are family templates or loops such as "not good enough" that you need to work through, heal and release.
These templates have been passed down for generations from relatives for whom nothing you did was ever enough, or right, or perfect.
Forgive them for passing this down to you.
Forgive them for not loving themselves.
Forgive yourself for letting them make you feel their opinions have control over your own self worth.
The only approval and love you need is from yourself, not those committed to see the worst in you; who project their own fears and self limiting thoughts of not being good enough upon you...
This is where your freedom lies.
I am going to let you guys in on a SECRET that may help you in your Twin Flame Journey.
24 years ago my Twin Flame said something to me that I CHOSE to withdraw from.
We were BFF's and told each other everything, but I did not want to hear it...
so I RAN.
Not from him mind you, but from MYSELF.
It was simple constructive criticism, however what he said hurt my feelings and instead of dealing with it; I simply walked away.
I gave away my power.
I was not in charge of me or my feelings.
Instead of ACTING and facing what he said, and taking advantage of a GROWTH OPPORTUNITY,
I REACTED and abdicated my throne of power.
Why am I telling you this?
Because so many of YOU are in fact the RUNNER in your Twin Flame Journey and do not even realize it.
By expecting others to tiptoe around your very precious feelings, you are in fact inhibiting your own growth as a soul, thereby sabotaging your Twin Flame partnership.
Let me repeat that:
You are in fact inhibiting your own growth as a soul, thereby sabotaging your Twin Flame partnership!
We are here to grow, we are not here to stagnate and if you are trying to CONTROL what you HEAR from others including your Twin Flame, you are simply blocking your own growth as a soul and as a Twin Flame.
When you are not growing as a soul, you cannot move forward.
When you cannot move forward, your Union suffers.
Understand that we are Ambassadors of Unconditional Love, and part of that love begins with ourselves.
Part of this soul growth is learning to not blame others for our feelings and triggers.
Why? Because our reactions are our responsibility.
As much as everyone is trying to make their reactions someone else's job now days:
our Reactions to things is the one and only thing we have control over.
So why give away your power and ALLOW someone else control over you?
Realize that this is an active choice you are making.
Is that what you want; For someone else to control how you feel?
Do you want to live a life where others to have control over you and how you react?
Or are YOU in charge of YOU?
Understand that you will be triggered by others including your Twin Flame until you are not triggered anymore. This is to force you to face yourself, your pain, and heal your past so you BOTH can move forward...
You cannot control what others say or do, you can only control how you choose to react!
Stop giving away your power.
Stop Blocking your Union.
You are not a fragile being; you are a powerhouse of love and light, start acting like it.
This is what your "Twin Flame Runner" is waiting for.
This is why we are here
Take back the reins of your own life and LEAD the healing of your Twin Flame Journey.
Take back control of your life and lead your Twin Flame back to YOU, by doing the work.
Heal yourself, heal your Union.
This Spiritual Journey has been an amazing one back to myself, becoming whole and realizing who I was meant to be. This Blog will be about Reiki, Spirituality, Love, Twin Flames, becoming healthy balanced and whole and all that I have learned along the way. Channeled messages, spontaneous poems, scribbles and memes will be mixed in.